.falling in love with you.

those words.
you meant them for me or you just filling up the empty spaces?

either way, it made me smile.


you wore full baju melayu. but, didnt went to jumaat prayers? haih.

.sinking down.

"If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.

You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible."

copied it from surprise,surprise

i'd still remember the way u approached me. strangers with courage. knowing nothing that this girl could make your life upside down.

.hopes.

I was afraid

The you who always been there for me
The you who always waited
The you who always have the greatest patience

Now, gone
you did not stand at your fave spot anymore
you did not greet me with your smile no more

What's left is just a piece of time Which i've kept safely
In the drawer
The drawer of ours.


gila ke kau tunggu smpai midnite hari2? biarlah. bkn siapa tahu pun, kan? dia? 6bln lg la baru tahu.itu pun kalau-lah.

.grilled fish?i think so.

kalau nak sorok, sorok betul2. jangan tutup dengan bantal kalau kotor satu katil.
kalau nak tunjuk, tunjuk betul2. jangan ingat semua orang boleh faham kau kias2.
bukan kau tak tahu. kau faham bukan dia macam mana. kau tahu apa reaksi dia. still, kau buat lagi.
sesaklah. ulang2 rasa yang sama kau bagi dia. sampai satu tahap dia dah tak boleh react dengan apa yang kau laku. sakit bukan jika luka lama yang jadi lagi. rabak. ego. jangan ingat hanya kau dia fikir.
kadang2 dia rasa bodoh tunggu kau. sedang kau, kau tunggu masa itu habis cepat. apalah dengan 2-3 hari tu. berbulan kau tanpa dia. boleh ikut hati. boleh ikut rasa. dia? biar-lah. kau bukan mahu tahu pun. like you care what happen to her even she's gone. gone forever i might say.



hari ni dapat mkn grilled fish. sedap dan free!

.grilled chicken with macaroni & cheese.

i saw you
through the cracks on the wall

i saw you
through the torn in the bushes

i saw you
through the skeletons in the lab

i saw you
but i cant reach

your cute smiles
your annoying smirks
your awkward gestures

all of it comes to an end

the moment
i saw you


(with another woman)


sebulan lagi ye des. sabar. oh, lupa. skrg sy da berbau epal. epal hijau. ;)

.D.U.

next time i stumble up upon ur ****,
dont u ever think i will forgive u!!!!!!!
again!!!







kau mmg suka buat aku marah kan? enough of ur bullshit!just go, will u?
u r an expert in ruining my mood. no need to ask. u will surely give ur best.
dah tak boleh faham2 lagi? masih nak kena ingatkan over n over again?
tolong-lah. everything about u is impossible. y bother?
hurting without reasons, it still bleeds.

.better late than never.

sayu
pilu
hiba
sedih

itu semua rasa
boleh jadi kau mahu
boleh jadi ia buru
memang tiada yang ingin
apa lagi mahu teman

mahu jauh
mahu pergi
mahu halau

jadi asing
jadi sisih

biar ia tahu
itu bukan kamu
biar ia faham
itu bukan mahu

jauh jauh jauh
penjara ia
dalam kotak oren itu

singkap
jika mahu kaca dalam gula
buka
jika mahu racun dalam kapas


lari
sembunyi
dalam bingit
dalam teriak

walau sudah ia erti
benar itu tipu



kamu nervous ya? chill sudah. rahang kamu 4 segi. baru saya sedar hari itu. ;)