.scandal.

lying.
easy 4 anyone to lie.

to whom it may concern.
u did lie once.
more to cheat actually.
since then u keep on lying.
u'll nvr stop,rite?

u fooled me.
i knew it.
i'm cautious.
let see how far u can go.
let see where did all the lies bring u to.
u'll nvr know how safe u were until u drop.
drop dead.

hurting people will never be a hard job..
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flirting makes me happy.
flirting makes me hurt.
same nouns.
different situation.
different reaction.

u flirt with others.
i'm hurt.
sumone flirt with me.
i'm happy.

we'll keep going hurting others.

life cycle will keep on moving and hurting and leaving people with diverse of feeling..

.kenangan raya.

raya tahun ni byk cerita.
last-minute-plan raya dgn my-classmate-since-kindergarten-till-form5.
meet with ex-clsmate time primry skul dulu.

ada (yg jumpa) :
yg da bkn berambut hitam-kerja photographer lg.
yg dulu kurus kering da jd cam bapak org(my ex-crush u know) pun ada.
yg dulu mcm kid-spoiler tp skrg cikgu skola pun ada.
yg da bersara,tp stil maintain raut muda (ini bekas cikgu ok?).

ada (dgr khabar shj) :
yg another kid-spoiler tp skrg da kerja bank n ada kereta sndiri.
yg da bertunang-tak-mahu-beraya-without-tunang pun ada.
yg da bertunang sama umur pun ada.
yg 'lovers' yg xpernah djangka lg la ramai.
yg da beranak dua tp masih mcm ank dara (cemburu!).
yg nk bertunang hari raya ke-3 (ini crush dulu2.isk2.hiba rasa hati)pun ada.

hati sakit kerna kekasih hati.menghibur diri sndri dgn kisah2 crush dulu.

.frozen.

11.21 a.m.sejuk.PSZ UTM.
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td ade idea nk tulis ape.tibe2 grey cell jd frozen.
xpela.tunggu lps cuti.
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.never ending worries.

susah kan bila ada problem yg x blh selesai2?
bila delay,makin x blh selesai.
haih.
ape nk jd?
mslh makin byk.
masa mcm x ckup2.
kdg2 bnda kecik pun jd besar.

bila nk lari dr mslh.
one tends to find some comfort.
x kesah la.
shopping-for woman mostly.
sleeping,smoking-for the opposite sex.
i would need sum attention when i hv probs.
not that kind of attntion like throwing tantrums at peoples around me.
well.
mybe sumtimes.
what i need is juz a simple msg.
that can soothe me.
words that can make my worries stay away 4 a while.
duh.
it is highly-possible-occured-event.
that i receive nothing but silent.
and i end up worrying much more.
it is sooo not okay.
hate that moment.

n i asked myself.
why long-distance-relationship is hard to retain?
is there any way i can keep it safe?
is that enough with juz trust?
these keep rolling-spinning in my grey cell.
like i dont hv anything else to think about.
the more i think.
the more the heart bleeds.


saya sayang kamu.
dan saya rasa kamu juga begitu.
adakah pemahaman kamu x cukup untuk dtafsirkan secara zahir?
secara zahir yg saya boleh fahami?

.masa dan works.

problems.
kesinambungan entri yg lepas.
akhir2 ni too much works.
damn busy.
tapi.
masih ada masa baca blog orang lain.
masih ada masa layan FS.
tidak.
thesis menggamit.
rangka kerja da ada.
final method da hampir pasti.
apa lagi yang tiada?
semangat?
ya!
semangat yang hilang.
ah!
alasan.
karna malas.
semangat dijadi kambing hitam.
workloads.
workforce?

i need my dose of love.
masa dan jarak memisahkan kita.
jiwang.

satu isu lagi.
hatred.
kenapa dendam x pernah pudar?
adakah dosaku terlalu byk?
ampuni aku YA ALLAH.
rakanku.
sayang padamu belum lagi hadir dalam jiwa ini.
maafkanku.
insiden dulu masih berbekas pedihnya.
peristiwa baru sering kau zahirkan.
yang tak pernah kurang sinis mu.

aku juga manusia biasa.
kerna itu aku ada rasa sayang dan hatred.

.rainy down.

rainy day.

mood down.

se'down'nye hujan.

why?

pedih kan bila rasa x dipeduli?

hidup with no friends is suck.

xpela.

what?

no!

enuf with xpela.

dat's why u left alone.

.raindrops.

.big eyes.

see miut-miut?

kiut kan?

awal pg.

xdela awal pun.

pukul 10.

hihi.

skipped class(at 8).

class till 1.

go n see lecturer 4 signature.

looking 4 other lecturer.

couldn't find him.

called him.

not answered.

try tomorrow.

1.30p.m.
went to lab.

finish some lab work.

bingung.

nasib baik ada step.

kalau tak.

lg lama bertapa kat lab.

tiba-tiba..

hujan menitik.

tapi lebat.

ughhh..

kebekuan dalam lab.

nasib baik kerja siap.

tamat.

saya merapu.

.problems.madah indah.

is it true peoples wif problem are people yg creative?
mungkin...
sum people born gifted
sum people not
4 me...
ada a few types of people yg creative coz they r problematic
creative in searching ways of running away from probs
err...
sum search ways 2 overcome probs.

i've met peoples who have probs.
i've read peoples who have probs.
they tend to act to become sum1 else.
ada jgk yg act jujur.
jd diri sendiri.
like 'go to hell wif others!'
nvm.
hipokrit atau tidak.
kita yg hidup.
problem solve ke tak.
kita punya pasal.
takde yg dapat change juz to fit wif others.

i know a guy.
wif beautiful n deep words.
madah.kata-kata.indah.
not everyone can pout words wif meanings.
words that comes wif emotions.
sejarahnya.
masalah keluarga.
family plays a big part in nuturing kids.
so that.
they don't grow in what most people don't want them to be.

i'm not saying.
those yg bermasalah.
ada problem dari kecik.
no.
masalah boleh datang bila-bila.
sedetik lepas.
setahun dulu.
at time when people expect least of it.

dis is not quote from anywhere.
dis is only my view.
from research.
not research on papers.
research of life.

aku juga ada masalah.
kerna itu aku boleh berkata-kata.
walaupun bukan indah.

~brokEn luv~

classic...

classic = past...

it shuld be so...

a past is a past...

rite?

it should be that way...

i can overcome it...

y sum people just can't?

let go..

move on...

y pick at things that u don't even look at a long time ago?

dulu sebelah mata pun x pandang...

bila da dapat...

u grab and won't let go...

sedarlah...

wake up...

it's not the same way it was...

and the other side pulak...

jgn ingt die da pandang...

hidung tinggi,hidung belang semua muncul...

get a mirror...

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not easy 2 befriend wif sum1 u have loved...

either u let it go...

or u trapped...

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~bOx~

a box...

juz like human...

beauty outside...

don't know what's inside...

lately...

juz hate fake smile...

smiling portray urself...

u cant hide ur true self...

no matter how hard u try to hide it...

people always can feel it...

no use...

nothing gain...

u juz hurt urself...

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hate n tired to pretend...

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