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11.21 a.m.sejuk.PSZ UTM.
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td ade idea nk tulis ape.tibe2 grey cell jd frozen.
xpela.tunggu lps cuti.
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~~~~~~~~SELAMAT HARI RAYA~~~~~~~~~~~

.never ending worries.

susah kan bila ada problem yg x blh selesai2?
bila delay,makin x blh selesai.
haih.
ape nk jd?
mslh makin byk.
masa mcm x ckup2.
kdg2 bnda kecik pun jd besar.

bila nk lari dr mslh.
one tends to find some comfort.
x kesah la.
shopping-for woman mostly.
sleeping,smoking-for the opposite sex.
i would need sum attention when i hv probs.
not that kind of attntion like throwing tantrums at peoples around me.
well.
mybe sumtimes.
what i need is juz a simple msg.
that can soothe me.
words that can make my worries stay away 4 a while.
duh.
it is highly-possible-occured-event.
that i receive nothing but silent.
and i end up worrying much more.
it is sooo not okay.
hate that moment.

n i asked myself.
why long-distance-relationship is hard to retain?
is there any way i can keep it safe?
is that enough with juz trust?
these keep rolling-spinning in my grey cell.
like i dont hv anything else to think about.
the more i think.
the more the heart bleeds.


saya sayang kamu.
dan saya rasa kamu juga begitu.
adakah pemahaman kamu x cukup untuk dtafsirkan secara zahir?
secara zahir yg saya boleh fahami?

.masa dan works.

problems.
kesinambungan entri yg lepas.
akhir2 ni too much works.
damn busy.
tapi.
masih ada masa baca blog orang lain.
masih ada masa layan FS.
tidak.
thesis menggamit.
rangka kerja da ada.
final method da hampir pasti.
apa lagi yang tiada?
semangat?
ya!
semangat yang hilang.
ah!
alasan.
karna malas.
semangat dijadi kambing hitam.
workloads.
workforce?

i need my dose of love.
masa dan jarak memisahkan kita.
jiwang.

satu isu lagi.
hatred.
kenapa dendam x pernah pudar?
adakah dosaku terlalu byk?
ampuni aku YA ALLAH.
rakanku.
sayang padamu belum lagi hadir dalam jiwa ini.
maafkanku.
insiden dulu masih berbekas pedihnya.
peristiwa baru sering kau zahirkan.
yang tak pernah kurang sinis mu.

aku juga manusia biasa.
kerna itu aku ada rasa sayang dan hatred.

.rainy down.

rainy day.

mood down.

se'down'nye hujan.

why?

pedih kan bila rasa x dipeduli?

hidup with no friends is suck.

xpela.

what?

no!

enuf with xpela.

dat's why u left alone.

.raindrops.

.big eyes.

see miut-miut?

kiut kan?

awal pg.

xdela awal pun.

pukul 10.

hihi.

skipped class(at 8).

class till 1.

go n see lecturer 4 signature.

looking 4 other lecturer.

couldn't find him.

called him.

not answered.

try tomorrow.

1.30p.m.
went to lab.

finish some lab work.

bingung.

nasib baik ada step.

kalau tak.

lg lama bertapa kat lab.

tiba-tiba..

hujan menitik.

tapi lebat.

ughhh..

kebekuan dalam lab.

nasib baik kerja siap.

tamat.

saya merapu.