16.10.08

.hati crushed.

.jangan kau bimbang sayang.
.dimana ku berada.
.dengan siapa ku bersama.
.jangan bimbang.
.ku tetap kau yang punya.

i'm sooo in luv with this song.
when da penat2 fikir assignment and thesis bila dgr lagu ni, automatically "I Can Smile" .
haha.this song macam ade power to make me happy.sound like 'jiwang'.but no.
really.everytime i heard it, any person whom i have a crush on, crossed my mind.
it's kind to make me think about the old times where crushes are important to make me attend classes.yes!i need that kind of motivation to come to school,college.what a joke.
of course la the most important thing is to learn at school(really?).tapi, ni macam aktiviti tambahan la.haha.
sanggup datang awal ke sekolah semata-mata nak tgk crushes lebih lama.aku noon session at that time.so,much time to kills while tunggu class kosong.crush aku time tu guna class yg sama.so, ade la aku 'mengdisplay' kan diri dkt2 class supaya dia nmpk.nmpk cam gatal.tapi, realitinya tidak la seteruk it sound.masih ada batas2 yg aku jaga.rasa macam stalker time tu.tapi bertahan for 4 tahun coz i've never had the courage to confront him.haha.lama gile jd secret admirer ni.i think i make a great spy or undercover.why i say so?bcoz, dlm 4 tahun tu xda sapa tau except aku yg bgtau.hehe.until la lepas SPM in 2003, i gathered all my courage to call him.he did respond.yela.bukan aku x penah ckp dgn dia pun.tapi,boleh kira dgn jari la.lepas call,ada la keep in touch for a while.tapi, i dont think its worth the four years admiring him.the aura, the vibe is not there anymore.life must go on right?but, once in a while teringat la jgk.
time dekat matix plk ada crush dgn teman sekuliah.kenal since 1st week kt sana.orientation week.minat coz he's cool.dont mind others but stil involve dlm program.setahun program tapi still macam dlu.not enough courage.enroll kat uni.1st month da jumpa crush.haha.soo mudah jatuh hati kan aku?i have a weakness over cool and weird guy.tapi,still sama jgk.tgk dari jauh and mampu jd silent stalker je la.haih.all my crushes remain crushes.berderai harapan dan angan2.what a sad story kan?semua yg aku ada crush on end up x pernah suka kat aku pun.xpela.nak buat mcm mana kan?

dan yang selalu ada crush kat aku, adalah orang yg x pernah aku sangka.friends.
kekasih hati?xpernah perasan dia pun until he told me me dia syg aku.

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