.you.

Hormat cara orang. 

Faham kita berbeza. 

Biar orang jadi orang. 

Dan kita jadi kita. 

(Because at the end of the day you will only have you.)

                                                   - wani ardy

sedar. please. 

.tacing harts.

memories. 
kenangan.


boleh delete semudah ABC? tidak. walau sekejap detik itu. kau akan ingat sampai bila-bila. masa detik itu, mungkin kau ingat ia akan jadi masa depan. tapi, saat selepas itu, ia hanya jadi satu phase dalam hidup. 


chill. you'll smile of everything you've done before.

memories dengan abah, kalau ingat satu2, memang takkan kering airmata.

.lagu Bo.

lagu best layan dalam kereta pagi2 dalam jem.. 

tapi, why on earth la shoot vids ni dekat melaka? heh.

.hiking up or dead end?.

semalam cuti Nuzul Quran. pagi pi renew lesen kat cheras. and petang pi ikut crazy guy. ada surprise konon (padahal taknak bagi tidur petang). atas ni pokok-tak-tahu-nama. macam2 pokok yang baru tahu nama. macam lawatan ke FRIM. bagus jugak dari pusing dalam mall atau golek2 tidur kat rumah.

 buat kerja gila time puasa. setengah jam hiking @ Hutan Lipur Gunung Nuang. pakai sandal beach ok. nasib tak putus. next time naik atas lagi sampai kem lolo. boleh nampak view Dam Pangsun(kalau tak silap).

 lepas tu lepak sekejap dekat waterfall depan tu. nak terjun tak boleh, puasa kan. 

next time bebeh.

Agrotek Garden Resort. plan nak berbuka kat sini. tapi, ramadhan ni diorang tutup sebulan. very nice place kalau nak buat wedding kat sini. 

last2 buka dekat Gino's Pizza & Pasta. owner mat salleh masuk Islam. very nice person. we had lemon tea, beef lasagna & margarita pizza. price ok & food sedap. gambar food tak sempat ambil. lupa. haha.

sini ada bar. tapi, location tak very strategic la. tak ramai orang datang. oh, ada surau jugak. so, boleh lepak lama2 kalau nak.

are we ready enough? what if one of us said "no"? can we deal with it? dulu takde option bagi kamu. sekarang ni payah la pulak kan? ur definition of sexy is very weird. very not normal. haha.

.terrible.

once you stepped out, take all the necessity to get ready. 

you just don't know what will happen later.

What comes to mind when I say the word stranger? -

What comes to mind when I say the word stranger? -

Entah kenapa walaupun ujung-ujungnya jadi begini,aku tetap merasakan yang mungkin dia memang sedang sibuk.Maybe his hands are full and i am infamous for being a handful.

It's like i want him, i want to sit next to him, talk a bit, maybe share some laugh, do my work, watch him do his work, make him do my work, eat at the same table, pass me the book and just be there when i turn around.
I don't think it's love, it doesn't feel like one and i don't treat it like one -- I mean i havent been experiencing dizzy spells or euphoric bursts but all that i want every day,lately, is a bit of him.

He's like this evil Rubic cube, the more time i spend figuring him out, the further i get thrown off and the weirder it gets. And i could never talk about it with anyone, i mean how is it even possible,i can barely find a word for it.

I don't know.
It's wearing me down but how can you forget someone who is brand new but feels just like someone you've been curling up with everyday in your dreams since the day you were born?

How?

                                          - yang mimi morticia

i am weak over strangers. yeah. better i have never met him than a friend for years. 

read, FRIENDs.

.smile.

"I'm a crazy bitch. I do what I want when I feel like it. All I wanna do is lose control"

nobody tell you how to do it. they may advice. but, it's up to you. stubborn.

.hujan renyai.

music soothing gila. boleh tertidur.

.sakit paling severe.

sakit paling severe.


paranoia.




used to have it. now pun still have. pandai lah jaga diri sendiri. takde sape boleh tolong. hidup mati sakit, semua tanggung sendiri.

.kangen.

i cut my hair short last 2 weeks. very2 short. ingat boleh hilang segala kusut. tak jugak hilang. *sigh
sesak dah nafas. baik macam mana pun memang tak boleh nak puaskan hati orang. like seriously, please wake up. bukan dalam dunia ni kau sorang saja yang nak hidup. mamat bangla or nepal yang kerja kat site KLIA tu pun ada yang ada degree or master kat negara asal diorang. last2 kena kerja kat sini without permit. orang asli kat taman negara pahang sana ada degree bussiness dari U singapore. rilek je pakai short tangkap ikan sungai. 
ok. dah tak tau apa aku merepek sorang2  ni. rasa nak quit kerja sekarang n balik kampung jual kuih. atau, cepat2 kamu datang n bawa aku lari. i dont mind merempat kat negeri orang, asal kamu ada. 




paman, your little naughty baby ni dah xtau nak buat macam mana. she needs your comforting inspiring words. please.

.hello?.

to you.

yes, you!

busy bee. let me fly too. 

.fight.

if you really want it, fight for it.


tak banyak kita tahu kalau tak cuba. ada phase dalam hidup ni jatuh banyak kali baru boleh diri semula. 
a friend of mine. used to be or still be (i don't know if he ever thinks i'm his friend or not). i used to share everything with him (i'm not sure if he did the same). problems. hatred. siapa yang tak pernah rasa bukan? lagi bagus dapat depan2 dari rasa tersindir sendiri. sakit yang nampak lagi senang deal dari fikir bukan2. benda dah dapat, jangan senang2 lepas. tak pasti akan lekat balik atau tidak. senang cerita, tanya hati mahu atau tidak. akal sila bagi kerjasama. susah nak hidup. kalau senang, bukan hidup namanya.

You don't give up just because things are hard. 

You don't give up what you love just because you think you can't do it.

You don't give up who you love. Because you just don't. 

                                                         - yuna zarai 

if you really want it, fight for it.




i'm a fighter for a few years. sudahnya, tak larat. tanya hati, mahu? jawabnya, move.